Random Conversation 2

Hey there everyone!

Happy Winter Solstice Day!

Anyhoo, I'll be sharing with you another random conversation that Yang and I had.

On Letting Go...

Grey: Remember that time when you said that the only time you'll watch a IPTL is when Rafael Nadal will be there. And then, the Universe heard you and there goes Rafael Nadal coming here in the Philippines..

Yang: But, I told myself that nope.. I'm letting this go because of the last big hooray before the year ends that we're planning for..

Grey: And because Universe has its ways.. since I have a class on the last day of the IPTL, you were finally able to watch Rafael Nadal. Dreams do come true, Yang.. *wink*

Yang: It's always like that for me... just when I already accepted and resigned myself and let go of that certain thing, that's when it comes back.

Now.. while Yang was looking for some macarons and since we couldn't find it..

Grey: Well, I guess, sometimes.. not everything that you let go of will come back to you..

Hahaha!

Grey and Yang certainly can't wait till we unplug for the next couple of days...

Happy Holidays everyone!

Random Conversations 1

Hey everyone!

Here's some random conversations we have that I'd like to share with you. *wink*

On Baggage:

Yang wanted to look for some shoes since there was a sale going on and before we have to enter the area, we have to left some of our baggage at the baggage counter. After looking around for some new kicks, we head out and weren't able to find what we were looking for. We were about to get our baggage but decided that we should leave it there for awhile as I was already hungry. After finishing our meal..

Yang: The number for the baggage is with you, right?

Grey: Yep.

Then, surprisingly, Yang said some funny banters..

Yang: Sometimes, we need to leave the baggage behind. Not to leave it entirely but to take it off from ourselves, for awhile, for us to rest. And then if we are ready again, we will get it back and continue on with our journey.

I couldn't help but laugh at this one but it does make sense.

Anyhoo, happy new moon day everyone! ;)

Note to Self: Letters from our 2015 selves to our 2016 selves

Hello there everyone!

Happy New Moon day!

As you may all know, my moonsister Yang and I have this annual tradition of writing to our future selves every New Moon day of November. So without further blabbering, here's my letter to the 2015 me which is today from the 2014 me.

Letter of 2014 Me to 2015 Me

Dear 2015 Rhio,

Hello there future me! I somehow don't know exactly what to tell you or ask you. As you can see, I just finished answering the questions of our 2013 self. Her few questions we're really good but a bit lengthy. And as you know that as I'm currently writing to you, I'm feeling a bit weird for not being quite myself. Anyways, you must know that a lot of things happened this 2014 that a bit unforgettable but you really wouldn't want to experience all over again (the bad ones). And somehow, you feel that you really are 'growing up' even though you still want to relish the kid in you. But as you may doing your best, life balance is what our goal these days. I honestly don't know have any gut feelings for you my dear 2015 self but somehow the word 'ready' keeps popping in my head every time I think of you. So tell me, is you my dear 2015 self, the time when you really are getting ready for things for 2016? Do tell me please right now. I really want to know. :) Somehow, I wonder if you're still in the same place as you answer back to your 2014 self. But I'm hoping that you are somewhere new and in the place that you can truly call your own. If I'm correct, 2015 will be the last full year you'll have in your work so I hope you do get to make the most of it. As for the questions I want to ask, well, just tell me a lot of things about you and the all the things that happened especially all those wonderful things. I'm sure you are much better than the me I am now. And I do hope that you are attaining and maintaining the life balance you've always wanted and needed for. 

Do keep going and keep moving and keep believing. Never forget to be always grateful and appreciate especially all those little things because it's always the little things that matters the most. And because sometimes God gives you more blessings when you have a grateful heart and when you take good care of what you have. Pray everyday. Say what you mean and mean what you say. Listen more. Be always there for the people you love. Live in the moment but do keep some for the tomorrows that come. Never stop dream. Persevere more. Always pursue excellence in anything that you do. Hope for the best. Silence is good sometimes. And always, always, always, have faith!

Of course, I don't want to end this letter without this finale question:

What would you do if you can do anything at this very moment?

:) ☀ ♥

Letter of 2015 Me to 2014 Me

Hello there 2014 Rhio!

Look at how time flies! It's been a year and yet so many things happened already. I swear! Both literally and figuratively this time that in fact I don't know how to begin telling you the stories that led up to the moment that is NOW.. me writing back to you and should I say definitely way better than ever. So how about a high five? Oh yeah! Awesome! Hahaha! 

So let's begin with that slumber party with your high school girlfriends which you've been planning as a tradition of sorts to catch-up, bond and spend time together since you are all allocated geographically that this kind of traditions are a must. 

Then of course, the 1975 concert (which by some stroke of Universe's magic we were able to go to rows below the concert arena after surviving that stampede.. LOL) that somehow catapulted this year for you to watch a lot of awesome concerts with Karenade and Yang.. Hale's album launching and mini concert last March, the free Owl City concert last May, Zedd's True Colors Tour which is accompanied with an awesome story because after talking to Yang that when Zedd comes back to the Philippines, we somehow promised ourselves to watch him and then a few days later.. tadaaah! Universe surprised us with the news that Zed is coming, and of course that spontaneous spur of the moment decision to watch Sheppard for free again in Mall of Asia and that wickedly awesome Walk the Moon concert in TriNoma for free too and funny because just was when I was telling Yang of when will be the time that we will be able to watch a concert at the pit area, the Universe again surprised us because we found ourselves at the pit dancing and singing to the music. Ah.. so much to thank the Universe for this year.

And then not to mention the Spoken Word poetry by Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye which really tug your heartstrings and of course, Singing in the Rain Musical which made you feel like singing and dancing in the rain as well. Not to mention those pockets of sunshine and pleasures that The Big Guy Up There gives us to remind us that life is beautiful after all.

But of course, despite those wonderful and awesome moments, these were balanced by that emotional ordeal you have to go through that made you decided to hold ourselves altogether and face front all our fears, cry our hearts out, feel every emotion there is that needed to be felt and accept it and work our way with it and through it, embrace the many changes that came and somehow becoming the person that you are now. Of course, there were a lot of times when you have to ask so many questions with exclamation points beside it before finally regaining the commas that you are having right now. And somehow, the Big Guy Up There placed  a period on one aspect of your life this year.

I guess, this year was the continuation of our transition stage from all aspects of our lives. And I think this is our 'quarter life crisis' (if that is the correct term) and I can say that we are a 'Quarter Life Survivor'. So, hooray for us! And yes, we are still in the period of commas right now. And patience my dear, it will be a month and few more days till 2016 so hold fast to your seat because 2016 will be definitely our year. Right now, we are still in the adjustment and transition period gearing up for 2016. This is our way of definitely honoring our pace and making things slowly but surely.

Oh, and I think I know now why 'Ready' is our word for this 2015. It's because this year was the culmination of all the experiences that we needed to experience to better equip us for the coming years ahead (I'm talking about the next 5 years of our lives). Aren't you excited?! Coz I can already feel the excitement right now as I'm typing this. All positive energy.

Well, as to some of your questions as to the place we are talking about, well, we are still in the same place. Though, fret not, we will get there. I Promise. :) You just have to think right now, that where we are at the moment is where we are meant to be for now. :) 

Ah, one change you shouldn't forget to happen too this year was when you finally transferred from your first workplace to your current workplace then resigning to your previous position that you held for four years which I somehow realized that we quite predicted ourselves again right there. And right now you are a Consultant and was assigned to be an alternate on meetings, orientation, seminars or workshops on Child Rights which is a big responsibility but I know that we can handle this and we are up to the challenge. 

Remember, when something closes there's always something that opens just for you. ;)

And now that we finally meet, I feel like giving you a hug while I get teary-eyed from all the things we've been through. And can I just say, I love you. I love us, definitely. Hahaha!

peace, love, light and happiness,

2015 Rhio

Letter of 2015 Me to 2016 Me

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Hello there 2016 Me!

Oh my goodness! My hands are quite trembling and feeling cold and somehow teary-eyed but all these feels are really in a good, good way.. because just typing every a,b,c's of this letter to you just makes me feel giddy and happy and excited all at the same time to finally write to you.

Let me share with you something. You see, when we went to Quiapo Church 2 years ago while we were closing our eyes and having this heart-to-heart conversation with the Big Guy Up There.. I don't know if it's a vision but 2016 popped into our mind. We don't know what's with 2016 exactly but it's just so funny that the 2016 Olympics will be held in Rio. How cool is that right?! I mean, is it just a coincidence or is it also a sign that great things will happen for us. 

Ah.. this feeling I'm having right now like having joyful tears and tearful joys and my heart feel like exploding because of all the blessings that is coming our way. I'm sure that we will be doing great than ever and we will be getting where we should be.. where we are meant to be. I'm so positive of this. 

And here's what I want to tell you that hopefully will surprise you when you read this..

Let your dreams (both when you're asleep and awake) guide you towards the path that you needed to take. Let every decision of yours be aligned to God's will. 

Take every sign (literally and figuratively) that you come across along the way as your life guides.

Pray for discernment.

Take those leaps of faith, I promise it will surprise you in a really, really, good way and in ways more than you expect it. (Best surprises ever ;) )

Say YES more often. (This somehow came from your inner voice like an instinct. So I think, you must follow this.)

Just as you learned to let go and have your inner happiness grow each day, you will blossom into a woman you always needed and wanted to be. 

Smile and stay graceful despite the adversities. C'est La Vie. ;)

Be grateful every day and savor each day and each moment because all that you have is a gift and a blessing from the Big Guy Up There.

There's good in every day.

Have that joie de vivre in you always. like romanticizing each day as if it's your last. 

Have that great balancing act.

Hello's are coming your way. So say each Hello with a smile and embrace it. ;)

New beginnings it is indeed. ;)

Pray always my dear. No matter how simple it may be as long as it from the heart and from every fiber of your being.

Always have a review of your goals to see how far you've come and set new goals from time to time. It's the only way we know we grow and blossom. ;)

Have more adventures, wherever that might be. (Hello there KaRhiAdventures, Moon Sisters Moments and all other adventures) ;)

Believe and Have Faith all the days of your life. :)

I know this has gotten quite long but I think I just wanted you to be really prepared and well-equipped. Somehow, we are currently loving the mysteries of life (balancing it to our gift of quite predicting things) to leave room for the surprises that life has in store for us.

Ah.. so many words are quite popping in my head right now.. surprises, yes(es), hellos, beginnings, going places, miracles..

I will not have any questions for you young lady, but do tell me the stories of how our 2016 is. I'm pretty sure it will be wickedly awesome and far much better and one of the best years of your life. Like literally (and figuratively)  jumping and taking those leaps of faith one day at a time. Because we just know. ;)

And we are already getting there. I promise! ;)

So, to ask you again..

what would you do if you can do anything at the moment? ;)

Peace, Love, Light and Happiness,

2016 Rhio

:) ☀ ♥ 

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Dear 2015 Jhun,

So, how's life lately? Still writing that stuff you're not sure where you're getting the emotions from? Right now you're still drowning yourself on these weird emotions, I wonder if you're still feeling the same way or will you find your old self too silly. ;) Are you still feeling confused as you are  now? I hope by now you finally found the answers that you were looking for.

How's work? Are you still on the same job that you've learned to love, though the kids are making you crazy, or have you finally tried looking for a job in a hospital or someplace else? 

I won't ask you alot of questions this time. I just want you to tell me what had been the greatest turning point of your life starting this time. I'm not sure why, but I'm feeling something big is going to happen. I know, it might sound scary. It might even sound funny because who knows, maybe nothing would happen. But just in case there will be, I hope you've already gained enough courage to face it. Keep your chin up girl, we can make it. Tell me your story. What were the crazy, selfish things we did for ourselves? Any spontaneous decisions we did that somehow turned our world upside down or did we still keep on acting on the safe side? Now I'm curious about the stuff that we did. Trust me, it's okay if it's not all good. Just remember this:

 No regrets. 

Got it? 

I wish you'd have a blast this coming year. Make it good. Turn it into something worth telling stories about. Okay? ;)

Till We Meet,

2014 Jhun

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Dear 2014 Jhun,

Funny how in a span of one year, your world could really suddenly turn upside down. Here's the thing, we really had a blast this year. Too many things happened, and all of them are memories worth keeping. So let's start a trip down the memory lane, shall we? ;) 

First off, we had a good and not-so-good headstart with our year. Remember when we bought our tickets for the "The 1975" concert? And how we ended up having a case of chicken pox two weeks before the said concert. I mean, seriously?! We were already resigned to the fact that we will be missing the concert that we've waited for a whole year. But being the hard headed little brats that we were, we ended up telling Rhio that we've decided to join them even if we're all covered up in that freaking constellation of scars and what-nots. So for cover up, we swaddled ourselves in layers of clothing and face mask instead. Just like your typical bank robber strutting her stuff in broad daylight.:P (And it was a huge success!It doesn't matter how we almost got ourselves killed in a stampede though when we rushed four or five flights of stairs just for a free seat upgrade. Hahaha! We still felt amazing.)

It's also kinda little bit weird how this year was full of strange coincidences. Like when that time when you and Rhio were watching some random stuff on the internet, then suddenly thought of Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye, and you just randomly mumbled "If these guys will ever perform here, we should definitely watch it. Okay?" Then just a couple of days later, you skimmed over your Twitter newsfeed then like a Jackpot sign, you read the post "Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye in Manila." Really. What were the chances? And also remember how when you were talking again about that show of Zedd that you missed while you were still in college, so you made yourselves a deal that if ever he makes a come back, you said that you would never miss it? Then after a couple of weeks, voila! He announced that the True Colors tour was coming.

So many things happened that it felt like a roller coaster ride. From music concerts (The 1975, Incubus, Owl City, Us The Duo, Zedd, Walk The Moon), and spoken word (sarah Kay and Phil Kaye); to musicals (Singin' In The Rain) and out of town excursions and food adventures with friends (too many to mention. :P including our spontaneous beeline to the karaoke just to relieve ourselves from stress). Add to that our scheduled runs around UP and that day when you let your friend drag you to a Zumba class, which admittedly, was kinda fun. Truth be told, if this was the last year of my life, these things made it all worth it. :)

I hope by now, you feel proud of what we did. Are you? ;) Anyway, on to the serious stuff though. Yip, we're still writing. And no, we still don't have any idea where all of these ideas come from. Reading too much books, probably. You know how you get that feeling as if you're writing to someone or for something? Don't worry though, I don't find our old self silly. I'm even happy that she started doing these things because now, we felt more lighter - freer. Though we don't write on a daily basis anymore, but we try as much as we can to post regularly. We stopped scheduling posts because we decided that it felt more real and more honest for us if we post the things that we created right on the spot because it reflects on what we feel for that specific day. I hope we can keep doing this as long as we can, for as long as we need.

On with our work. Yeah, we're still here. Though now we've finally decided that after two years in this job, we've already reached our peak; and it's time for us to plant our roots someplace else. We'll definitely miss this place though. We made new friends and we're thankful because here we've learned to face many of our fears and we learned to conquer them. And I'm proud to say that we didn't have any regrets. And I hope that made you proud of us too. :)

Yours,

2015 Jhun

P.S. By the way, I forgot to tell you about that selfish, spontaneous, thingy that we wanted to do even just for once in our life. We decided to join this guided road trip that will happen on the last week of December. >(^o^)< It's a three day road trip that will end up on a full moon beach party and here's the catch: the destination is random. We won't have any idea where we're headed off, and we'll just trust ourselves to the hands of the tour organizers. Good luck to us and hopefully I can still comeback after this trip so that I can meet our 2016 self. :P

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Dear 2016 Jhun,

First off. How was the road trip?!?!?! I seriously want to know. Were you able to make it? I hope to god you did because if you didn't, I promise I'll swear you off to the deepest darkest ends of the earth. Just kidding. For a moment. :P

So kiddo, how are we? I wonder where you are currently seated right now while you're reading this. Are you still surrounded by the books we've collected all these years? By the same walls that we've painted and written poetry on just a couple of weeks ago? Remember how you felt when you started repainting these walls and your heart just twisted a little bit because you knew that you're letting go of a part of you to the backseat of this ride because you felt that you have to do it to make space for new memories? I remember that after finishing this room and I looked around, it felt like the room became too small because my roots have finally grown too big for this place and they're longing to spread themselves in another place. So what did you do about it? Did you ignore that call or did you listen to it? What were your reasons? 

I wish you had yourself get lost. But not lost in the sense that you didn't know what to do with your life. I'm talking about getting lost in living - in fully experiencing your life not just by surviving it. When you let your own self decide where you want to go without the help of planned maps and  unwarranted advice. It doesn't hurt to listen to them from time to time, but I hope that the choices you've made are the ones that you wanted to do in the first place.

So where are we working now? I'm kinda curious as to where we've finally landed our feet on. Did you miss working in school? The holidays and class suspensions? I hope you didn't turn yourself into a workaholic idiot though. :P

What did we do? Any grand vacations that we had? What are the new things we've tried? Tell me your story. I promise I will be here to listen.

Yours,

2015 Jhun

P.S. Another weird coincidence. Because you wrote this post at home last night where the internet connection's still down (raawr) and was about to post it here in the office and when you opened up Tyler Knott's blog, this was his typewriter for the day. Need anymore signs my dear? :P

Dancing It Out With Walk The Moon!

Looks like this year is all about music and not just plainly about music but actually going to concert and watching these artists LIVE! Never thought that Yang and I will be watching live performances here and there. 

And last Wednesday, thank God for the free cut and holiday that we were able to finally watch Walk The Moon in TriNoma. Funny thing because the original plan was to watch them in UP Town Center. But I guess, The Big Guy Up There along with the Universe had other plans for us. You see, before going to the venue, we went to 'the city' to fetch Yang's sister. We were waiting for the free e-jeepney ride going to Katipunan when I asked my friend if the concert at UP Town was already starting. She said yes. Just when we thought that we are meant to watch it in UP Town, we decided to to just watch in TriNoma instead. So we went back to her place to rest for awhile.

Here's the somehow weird yet surprising part of how our day went. When we arrived in TriNoma, we settled ourselves outside the barricade they placed to watch. I was even kidding Yang, telling her 'When will be the time that we will be able to watch a concert that we will be in the front area, like in the pit nearest the stage?' I even asked her if to whose concert will it be and she answered Foo Fighters. Then, after a few minutes, we found ourselves in the front area, nearest the stage, right there in the pit and the nearest that we could get ever! It's like the Universe has been listening to our conversation again and answered it right away. Hahaha!

So, can I say thank you God and Universe!!!

Anyways, here are some of the pics we took.

Can we just say that we love how their dancing while singing makes you want to dance too! I love how they were all energetic and most especially their entrance song. Because it was no less than The Lion King's Circle of Life. Hahaha! 

Yang and I can't help but dance along with them tonight! Definitely, can't wait for them to go back here in the Philippines!

A Night With Sheppard

It was midterms week and I'm supposed to confine myself in the rabbit hole to study but life suddenly surprised me with a spontaneous and spur of the moment invitation that I should definitely not miss! So when Yang texted me, I immediately called her and at that instant when she mentioned 'Sheppard', I don't know what gotten into me that I suddenly told here.. 'Yes! Where are you? Where are we going to meet?' without even hearing what she was saying at the other end of the line. Hahaha! I know, I'm supposed to be panicking for cramming but I didn't. Dang girl! What is happening to me?! 

And guess what?! When we arrived at the Mall of Asia Music Hall where they held their concert, the presenters gave free tickets to go inside the mini arena. And all we were able to say to ourselves was.. 'This is meant to be. Where we are at this very moment is right where we should be.' :) :) :) Oh Universe! How can we ever be thankful for that fun and spontaneous night? ;)

Sheppard!
Totally love her hair color. ;)

Forgive us for this photo. We weren't that prepared because we didn't have our cameras as we we already told ourselves days before that we will let go of this opportunity since I have exams and Yang have work by the next day. But this is too good to miss, right? :)

Then, of course, Universe has something up its sleeve again for us that night. I guess, there are so many moments that are happening for this Blue Moon week before it ends tomorrow. 

The band sang one song that wasn't theirs. And guess what's the song.. it's Rude by Magic. And we were like.. What?! Seriously?! Don't get us wrong, we love the song. It's just that this song holds a sign for us, well, especially for me since it played during our game called 'chuwariwap'. Hahaha! And we were like silly for connecting stuff and creating stories thereafter. And as what Yang said, 'Of all the songs, in all the playlist.. why 'Rude'?' And I was like, 'I know right?!' Hahaha! So I guess, that's the ultimate clue of the day for us. 

Anyhoo, we can't wait for them to be back here in the Philippines to have their major concert! 

Zedd True Colors Tour and some stories..

Hello there!

Forgive us if we haven't posted anything in here for quite a long time. But allow us to share with you some of the things we've been up to lately. :) :)

Let's start this with..

A few months ago when Yang and I have our usual conversations we told ourselves and somehow made it a promise that the next time Zedd will be having his concert here in the Philippines that we will watch it since we missed his concert last year. Then, lo and behold, a week after that random conversation, as I was browsing the internet for some other things, (remember when I told you that I just find things without even looking for them?) a news popped up on the screen announcing Zedd's concert here in Manila on August 8. And I was like.. Whaaaat?! Are you kidding me?! It's like the Universe were listening to our conversations and just made it real for us. So I instantly texted Yang about the concert and without a doubt told ourselves that we will purchase tickets as soon as we have money for it.

With that, we also invited my dearest Karenade to have another #KaRhiAdventureslovesMoonsisters moment. Hahaha! Gaahd! I'm so thankful for The Big Guy Up There for giving me these two lovely ladies to be a part of my life and I'm so happy that they became friends too and now the three of us, luckily have a new bonding moment of our own. Thank you so much Big Guy Up There! :) :) :) 

So here comes the night of the concert. The much awaited day of the week. 

Loving the different colors of the strobe lights as Haywyre played before Zedd showed up

And as Haywyre was playing his setlist, the rhythm from music would somehow literally make my heart like it's being defibrillated. Hahaha! And Yang suddenly had an acute migraine attack due to the flashy strobe lights. Hahaha! Gaah! Typing this makes me miss the subject, Anatomy and Physiology. :P

Anyhoo, the long wait for Zedd was totally worth it and definitely legen-wait for it-dary!!! This concert is definitely one of the highlights of our 2015! 

ZEDD!!!!

We were jumping, fist-pumping, dancing, shouting, singing and just let loose and partied for every song, every rhythm, every beat on that epic and awesome night! :) :) :)

So why other stories? Because the concert day was filled with so many interesting things that happened.

First, Yang and I bumped with our college classmate who was then going to the concert too. Another coincidence or just another baader-meinhof phenomena?

Second, you know we would randomly play the game 'chuwariwap' where we press shuffle and play the song after we picked a category, right? Well, the funny thing about this concert is that almost all the songs that somehow holds a sign or played during our games of 'chuwariwap' played in this concert. I swear! We realized this halfway through the concert. And we were like.. 'whuuuut?!' I was even half-kidding Yang that maybe the love of my life was also in the concert and years from now, one of the many things that I'll ask him was if he watched the Zedd concert too. Hahaha! :P

Third, when Zedd was playing Zelda, I remembered the TV series A to Z and immediately told Yang about it. And I think it was the highlight of all the signs during that night. Hmm..

Fourth, while waiting for Zedd to show up, Yang was telling us and somehow wishing that the concert organizers would give free glow sticks and lo and behold, it did happened. Hahaha! We don't know what's with the day, that every time Yang would say something it would somehow happen. Hahaha! Oh and let's not forget that her dreams that she wake up remembering somehow literally came true too.. 

Fifth, finally, we get to ticked this off our bucket list and somehow said and told ourselves what it's like to party up all night and going home way past the curfew time we set ourselves. Hahaha! This whole moment was good while it last! 

And lastly, after this awesome and wonderful night, we are back to our realities but definitely waking up after a few hours of sleep with the songs still playing in our heads and living up the hype within us.

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It seems like we've neglected our blog for quite (?!) a long time now. So to make up for it, here's a song from us that hopefully will make you smile (or strangle us to death; whichever floats your boat.:P) As usual, it's just us, singing our hearts out along with secret jokes, side glances and missed cues and skipped chords. but as what we've said, we're just trying to have some fun. Keep your heads up, BLUE MOON's coming. ;) 

Happy Birthday Yang!

JUST FOR TODAY

Just for today

Leave all your worries behind

Cast a light against all your shadows

Don't let fear enter your door

Just for today

As you get up to this sunshine-y day

Or who knows it might be a rainy day

Just smile and get up

And don't forget to seize the day

Just for today

Live your life as it should be

Live your life as you want it to

You are meant to be where you are

Just for today

Feel every cell of your body

Live in every second of it

Make every minute count

The hour full of mundane and something special

Just for today

Be absolutely you

Run if you want to

Dance and sing and don't try to look back

Be free as you can be

Like a bird soaring high up in the clouds

And if there's one candle wish I'm saving up for

If there's a prayer I'm going to offer up to

Just for today

I wish

I pray 

And I hope for..

That today will be absolutely amazing 

And as awesome as it can be

Just for you

:)

Happy birthday my dearest moonsister, the Yang to my Grey!

I won't spoil this post with my too much ka-dramahan on just how you have been such a great, real and true friend and a sister of my heart in this journey called life. You know that I can't imagine life without you in it! For all the things that I've been through, you were always there, literally and figuratively. Just remember that I always got your back too, no matter what happens. Friends and sisters for life we will always be!

I love you to the moon and back, Yang!

:) ☀ ♥

Random Thoughts of the Week #2: Smells Like Teen Spirit

Hey everyone! We're back with our second weekly random thought. Sorry for the delay. Anyways, have a happy weekend everyone! :)

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Rhio

All the world's a stage,

And all the men and women merely players;

They have their exits and their entrances,

And one man in his time plays many parts...

These lines from William Shakespeare always tug my heartstrings. It makes me remember the times when I have to grow up too fast while others are in bliss and being pampered by their easy-going lives. Growing up from a somehow an unconventional setting, I learned to be resilient and persevere in tough times. And somehow found that despite the tough times I've been through at such a young age, I learned to be versatile and roll with the punches as I go along.

I somehow thank God that at a certain point when he gave me enough time to make up to those times that I felt was rob off from me. As what Yang and I would always tell each other, even if we didn't grew up normally like the other kids 'we wouldn't want it in any other way' because the lessons we learned and the way we perceive life and handle situations are just some of the best outcomes that we have during those times.

There are moments though when I try to have an introspection of who I was and who I am now and who I wanted and needed to be. Sometimes, I can't help at how far everything happened - all those changes, events and things in between. I admit there are still remnants of the me then that even if I don't want anymore, I just have to accept that it's part of the me now. It made me up the whole of me but it's also just a part of the sum. 

I don't know how exactly to conclude this whole thing but let me just say that with all these right now, all I can say is that and as what I always tell to myself: I am a work in progress. Learning and figuring things out as I go along.

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Jhun

Some people believe that people change, while others claim, they never would. Well for me, I think it works both ways. I may have changed some of my attitude and outlooks in life each year yet the core of me still remains the same. Seriously, I'm still not much comfortable chatting and making small talk with people. God, I can still remember the time when my heart rate goes up, making me feel like I'm going to have an anxiety attack, every time the phone rings. But somehow, this previous year, I kind of gotten the hang of it. Now I believe that there's truth in the "Fake it till you make it" attitude. You can pretend to be brave even if deep inside your shaking and somehow, that's how the people around will perceive you. Then later on you'll realize that really, there's nothing to be scared about. Yet, I'm still not over my fear with new people. We can safely say that until now, I'm still quite faking it. :P

I remember last weekend, me and Rhio spent the day babysitting my sister and niece while they took a dip in the pool, and we just chatted about random stuff (which truthfully, all we ever do lately. Seriously, until now we wonder how we never run out of things to talk about.:P) Anyway, we talked about alot of changes that happened to us within a year and weirdly enough, the people that we were still remains the same. Before, we were this pair of silly girls making silly videos and writing about silly stuff and now, here we are, still the same pair of silly girls with silly dreams, but somehow taking their responsibilities more seriously. It's like we're still dreaming about these silly dreams but then, the decisions we make in achieving them has gotten more practical. Don't get me wrong though, we still love doing these silly things that we usually do, but we try to balance them now with our responsibilities.

Whenever I try to picture the people I've been before, I find myself quite amused and a bit sentimental. I see this little girl in her floral dress, somberly sitting on her chair while the other kids where running and playing around. Then there's this tomboyish high school kid who opted to join the CAT (it's like a basic military thingy for highschoolers) rather than learning how to put on make-up which most of the girls her age did. And there goes this angsty, rebellious, eye-liner wearing punk kid in college who managed to retain the air of responsibility while at home. The one who ditched her classes every time the professor pisses her off yet somehow managed to get good grades in spite of it. Now, I see myself a combination of all these people. Like a rebel kid lurking behind the starched uniform of a responsible adult, just waiting for the right moment to step out and wreck havoc. The part goody two shoes and part punk kid who spontaneously does something outrageous just to break the monotony of her life.

With all of these changes I've been through, it makes me feel like a driver with no road maps. I don't know where I'm headed or what's waiting for me around the corner. I don't know if I should cross the road or if I should take the turn. I don't know who I'll become tomorrow, or the next year, or the year after that. All I know is that I will keep my foot on the gas pedal and will probably raise my hands to let go of the steering wheel from time to time just to tempt fate to take me wherever it will dare me to. As my favorite line from the movie Meet the Robinsons says: "Keep moving forward."

***While writing this one, I remembered an article of Patti Smith when she interviewed Johnny Depp and she asked him what happened to the characters he played once he's done doing the film and he said:

"They're all still there, which on some level can't be the healthiest thing in the world. But, no, they're all still there. I always picture it as this chest of drawers in your body - Ed Wood is in one, the Hatter is in another, Scissorhands is in another...The weirdest thing is that I can access them. They're still very close to the surface." 

The Truth About Forever

Hey everyone! 

Happy New Moon Day!

To celebrate this New Moon Day, Yang and I decided to write our own concept on forever. We may be both hopeless romantics but we're different when comes to forever...

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Jhun

The truth about forever? I'm quite sure no one really knows what forever really is. When will it really end? I remember a few years ago, probably around four or five years ago, I wrote a post regarding "Promise and Forever". basically, it's about how people who fell in love tend to make promises that they'd love each other till the end of time, although only a few of them were really able to keep that promise.

You might find it a bit ironic that for someone who constantly writes about love and other emotional stuff, I still feel cynical about the concept of forever. I remember when I wrote before that I'd rather have someone tell me that they love today than telling me that they will love me forever and ever. Why? Well for starters, I believe that when some people make this promise, they tend to get overly confident that the person they made that promise to will believe it and hold on to it. That even if that person (the one who made the promise) sometimes act like a jerk or a bitch towards the other person (the one whom the promise was made to) that person should just sit still and wait just because of that f***in promise of forever. The thing is, they tend to take that promise as an assurance that no matter what they do or don't do, the other one should just take that promise by faith. Sometimes they tend to think that "I already made that promise so I can act brashly today because I got a whole lifetime to make up for it." and later on all their petty fights will pile up and will end up hating the sight of each other because both were expecting that each will meet their end of the bargain but weren't able to.

Don't get me wrong though, I still believe in love. But not the forever kind. I'd rather have the everyday kind. The one where you can truthfully say to the other person that "Hey, I love you today but later this day I might be an ass and you'd hate my guts but I'd make it up to you later. I'd even love you more with everything I could. That I can promise. ;)" 

So there. I'm in a bit of a time crunch right now so I'd probably just get back to this topic some other time.

Happy New Moon everyone! ;)

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Rhio

Ever After. This is what I like to call my forever.

Growing in Love. This is what I like my ever after to happen.

It's a love story. And this is where it starts. At the beginning. I don't want to us be just any other story that went to waste. I want us to be the story that lives in the hearts and minds of our grand-kids as we tell them when we are old, wrinkly and gray that true love exists. That true and real love happens. And that we are living proof of that.

At the beginning. It will happen when all the forces of the Universe along with fate and destiny and the meticulous hands of the Author of the Universe will let us meet right where we least expect it. Surreal but nice.

We know that we came from different backgrounds. We were built differently. We have different foundations. We have characteristics, quirks, odds, strengths, weaknesses and other stuff that makes us who we are. And we know that we may change or we may not, but, surely we know that we are works in progress and that there's more.

As we knew of this, we will keep our minds open but our hearts closer till they intertwine. We know how the future is so uncertain. Too many odds and risks, too many options, too many choices, sometimes too little chances, the plots sometimes becomes way too twisted, circumstances becomes too unbearable and sometimes things doesn't make sense or everything is just so incomprehensible. We know these as facts of life. But, for the first time in a very long time, after taking care of ourselves and know that we can do this alone and that we are somehow complete and whole in our terms - just looking at each other's eyes, we knew that things will be different from now on. We can finally say to ourselves that 'This is it!' That, finally, we will, together, traverse this journey called life with what we have but much more better because we have each other. 

We will take baby steps. Slowly but surely. Deliberately and conscientiously. This is how we will grow in love. We will share the ups and downs, the joys and the pains, the laughter and the tears. We will be each other's strength and comfort. We will go through the seemingly mundane to the boring ones to the extraordinary and special days. Each day will be different. We will sometimes have shared silences and that's okay, we need that, too. We will be equals because we learn that we are a team, a partnership. We are each other's life partner. And finally, I can have my own man best friend. Yes, we will be each other's best friends and lovers at the same time.

There will be days when we have to face battles of our own. But, we knew that we have each other's loyalty and that this might just be the first step to conquering the battles each of us is facing. But, we can do this. We will make it. For we know that there's no battle that we can't handle. We may sometimes not have all the answers, but just being there with each other is sometimes more than enough. We will guide each other. And should the time come when we feel like losing, we will not forget to hold on to each other. And I assure you, even if I'm not as muscular as any superhero, count me in to persevere and endure the toughest of times with you. 

We will sometimes laugh when everything is just so incomprehensible because we don't want to be too wrinkly at such young age and we know that life doesn't have to be taken too seriously sometimes.

Our smiles will meet the crinkles of our eyes. Knowing by heart that what we have is genuine and forged by time and the things we've been through together. We give each other the time and space that is needed in order for us to grow into the persons that we needed and wanted to be. We will be thoughtful, kind and respectful with each other.

Somehow, along the way, we may make mistakes and totally pissed off at each other or be way too annoyed. We may handle things differently but we knew that at the end of the day, when the wrath of our tempers cool down, we will communicate and not sleep until we knew that we are sorry and have forgiven each other and that the problem was resolved. 

We will be comfortable together in the couch or in bed for afternoon naps and maybe some bit of cuddling. But as much that we love indoors, we will travel together too. We both know that we both yearn for that next great adventure. When we travel, we will both get to know each other more especially on how we will deal with different situations that will come our way. We will do our best to be healthy by doing some long walks or three minute runs or whatever we want to do as exercise. We will have our very own bucket list and together do each one in it and add some more.

We will never get tired of knowing each other every day of our lives because we both know that a lifetime is never enough of growing in love with each other and because we will both learn and realize life lessons and share them with each other. We will do our best to keep the sparkle and fire burning with what we can and with the best that we do.

We will introduce each other to different music and movie genre and different kinds of books. We may or may not like it but we won't force to each other. This will be just one of our ways of getting to know more of each other and what will make us different from each other that may keep the spice up still.

There will be days when we will have our topak ways but we will learn to not have topak when the other one has. We will be patient with each other but firm and gentle when telling each other that someone got pissed off or really annoyed. We will love each other even if on most days we may be hating each other. We will do our best to love each other with the best that we could and with all that we've got.

We will surprise each other from the smallest of things to the grandest of gestures. Because we both know that it's always the littlest things that matter and that the big bold moves are just the special ones. We will be the cheesy and romantics that we always are - especially when we are all alone with each other. *wink* 

We both know that despite the years we first started together, we still have a lot of things to figure out and learn as we go along. And this is what we will have in our minds as we both traverse this journey called life and that together, we will figure out things and we will learn them as we go along. 

Oh yes. I'll definitely say yes when you asked me to marry you. I'll walk down the aisle knowing that you'll be there to take my hand. I'll let you take my hand. I'll look at your eyes and will know. I'll just know that finally, you are the answer to my prayers. You are totally and absolutely amazing and worth keeping for. We are worth it. And we just opened another chapter in our lives. 

We will have five kids. Or maybe less or more than that because we will have one set of twins. We will raise them with unconditional love and support them in their every endeavor. We will guide them and discipline them if needed to. But we won't spoil them much nor control them altogether. We will let them grow into their very own persons. 

Should there come a time when we really get both busy and it may seem that we don't have time, we will make or create time for us to be together sans the kids and create time with the kids and to always have a bonding session with them.

We may go to bed really tired from a hard day at work. But we can alleviate it with some good massage and chat over coffee or tea till we are both sleepy and doze-off. 

We both know that even if we are in our 40s or 50s, life may throw at us some life-choking lemons that may shaken us and somewhere we might have midlife crisis of some sort, but know this. We will remember to always communicate with each other, openly and in a no-holds barred kind of way, to tell what we exactly feel, think and want to do. We will be both understanding and kind and thoughtful. And always have respect with each other. We will help each other. After all, aren't we best friends and lovers at the same time?

And we both know that we may have gained wisdom already but still there are a lot of things to learn and still have things to figure out. We may need to make up for some things but we will do it all with the thought that we need to balance it out with realities and ideals as we work things together.

Until one day, we will both retire and have empty nest. We will go back to just being together again. This time, old, wrinkly and gray. But we will never lose our sense of adventure and our being kids at heart. We will dance to our very own rhythm and pace. There's no need to rush. We will savor every minute that we have with each other even if that means afternoon coffee or tea in the porch of our home and mostly in silence and holding hands together. 

There might come a day that I may forget things more often than I used to but I know that in my heart, that just the sound of your voice or the slightest of your touch, I'll know that you are with me. That you are still the man I fell in love with years ago and the man I married and the man I still and always love each day of my life. The man I grow in love with until now.

This is how we will grow in love. I may not have written every slight detail in it but you get the picture. We can fill the gaps and get to roll with punches. We will be the living proof that true and real love exists despite how cynical and paradoxical the world is.

We are the living love story. Growing in love. Ever after. 

:) ☀ ♥