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This is for the girl who refuses to fall in love...
Don't get me wrong. She is not as stone-hearted as you think she is.
In fact, she's been in love with a lot of things - from the books that carry her high up above the clouds or going as deep as the Rabbit Hole or as far away as Neverland; from the sugar rush she gets from coffee, tea and sweets; from the guys who know damn well how to strum a guitar; from those people whom she find their accents and their minds sexy; from the written lyrical words of songs; from the stories she watch in movies; from the savory food she cooks and wanted to try out; and the list goes on.
She is also this dreamer yearning for that adventure all on her own across Europe aboard on a train. She loves magic and surprises. She is a great friend and a sister whom everyone would wish to have. She would go along with all your crazy and insane whatevers just because. She loves taking risk and chances and live each day as she could while prancing up and about in the sidewalks near her home. If you're lucky, you might see her at night talking to the moon or dancing in the rain with her purple umbrella.
Mad tea parties on Saturday afternoons and long phone conversations are what you two do best. Your conversations would go on anything and everything and in a no-holds barred kind of way. She believes in love and that everyone have their own fairytales and everafters. She just don't want one for herself. She knows there's nothing wrong with falling and being in love. She just refuse to have such a great experience.She would tell you that she is already contented with those kilig and dreamy feels from the books, movies and all things around her.
She had her life a bit planned out. But, she knows that some things unplanned do happen most of the time in our lives. She's all ready for that actually. I guess, she's just not that ready for that knight in shining armor who would sweep her off her feet. Or was it because she have seen how love bring a lot of vulnerabilities from the people closed to her that she guarded her heart carefully? She knows that love is like a rollercoaster ride. She has seen seen it. She felt it from her family, friends and her furry friends. I'm just afraid that she might miss that one great experience of magically falling in love, being in love and growing in love with someone.
And then, what if this prince charming of hers in a white horse would come along, right in front of her, and declare his undying love for her and tell her that he would do anything for her? That he is willing to wait and would move mountains just for her? What would she do? I really wish and hope that she would do the right thing. I hope that despite being tired from all the responsibilities that she's having right now, she would be brave enough and be not tired to fall in love with such a great and amazing person, whoever he might be is, that the Author of this universe had planned to betroth to her in the right time.
As hopeful as always that I am, I have high hopes that, one day, when that one magical and unforgettable day finally comes and she meets the Mad Hatter of her life, she would stay with him and not runaway.
:) ☀ ♥
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To the girl who's afraid to make decisions...
She maybe afraid, but it doesn't mean that she's a coward. Truthfully, if I were to go to battle and I'd get to pick only one other person who'll fight beside me, I'd pick her. Not because she's the strongest, but because she's the most loyal person I've ever known and for me, that's more than enough. Knowing that she's got my back and that she'll always be there with me to the end, gives me strength and courage to face my own demons. She's just scared of the uncertainties that lie further down the road that she was about to choose. She doesn't need someone to tell her where to go because she knows her own mind, thank you very much; but she's hesitant to choose because she always feel that she needs to weigh her options carefully. She's really not afraid to make decisions, she's just afraid to make the wrong ones. She's just scared to make the mistake that will turn her carefully built castle into shambles.
Don't let her natural sunny disposition fool you because underneath that seemingly jolly and content exterior, hides the anxious heart beating inside her chest. She's overly fond of her "What ifs?" ~ What if I would be happier if I choose that one instead? What if this is where I'm supposed to be? What if this is what I'm meant to be?
She wants to be happy. She wants to be spontaneous. She wants to be the best that she can be. But the problem is, she's afraid to choose. Because choosing for her not only means she gains something, it also means that she has to let go of the other. And I guess, that's what she's afraid of. Letting go of the "probable" better choice that she didn't take, troubled that the one she chose wouldn't work out.
I wonder where all these anxiety came from. Could it be because she's afraid to make the same mistakes that people close to her did? Or could it be she's just afraid to hurt people and make them turn away from her because of her decisions?
That's why she'd choose to bear the pain instead because she'd rather disappoint herself, than disappoint the people who's most important to her.
She doesn't need much. It's a given that she likes sparkles and magic, but those are not the only things she needs. In truth, I'm sure she would choose to live without it if she had to. I don't know if i'm right but I think that what she really needs, and I wish she finds, is a steady hand. One who'll not loosen it's grip on hers once she makes the mistake of tripping on her own feet, but rather grip it tighter instead to pull her up while telling her "Just take that leap of faith, little one. Everything's gonna be alright 'cause nobody's letting you go." and with this I wish, she'd finally find the peace her heart needs.
In fact, she's been in love with a lot of things - from the books that carry her high up above the clouds or going as deep as the Rabbit Hole or as far away as Neverland; from the sugar rush she gets from coffee, tea and sweets; from the guys who know damn well how to strum a guitar; from those people whom she find their accents and their minds sexy; from the written lyrical words of songs; from the stories she watch in movies; from the savory food she cooks and wanted to try out; and the list goes on.
She is also this dreamer yearning for that adventure all on her own across Europe aboard on a train. She loves magic and surprises. She is a great friend and a sister whom everyone would wish to have. She would go along with all your crazy and insane whatevers just because. She loves taking risk and chances and live each day as she could while prancing up and about in the sidewalks near her home. If you're lucky, you might see her at night talking to the moon or dancing in the rain with her purple umbrella.
Mad tea parties on Saturday afternoons and long phone conversations are what you two do best. Your conversations would go on anything and everything and in a no-holds barred kind of way. She believes in love and that everyone have their own fairytales and everafters. She just don't want one for herself. She knows there's nothing wrong with falling and being in love. She just refuse to have such a great experience.She would tell you that she is already contented with those kilig and dreamy feels from the books, movies and all things around her.
She had her life a bit planned out. But, she knows that some things unplanned do happen most of the time in our lives. She's all ready for that actually. I guess, she's just not that ready for that knight in shining armor who would sweep her off her feet. Or was it because she have seen how love bring a lot of vulnerabilities from the people closed to her that she guarded her heart carefully? She knows that love is like a rollercoaster ride. She has seen seen it. She felt it from her family, friends and her furry friends. I'm just afraid that she might miss that one great experience of magically falling in love, being in love and growing in love with someone.
And then, what if this prince charming of hers in a white horse would come along, right in front of her, and declare his undying love for her and tell her that he would do anything for her? That he is willing to wait and would move mountains just for her? What would she do? I really wish and hope that she would do the right thing. I hope that despite being tired from all the responsibilities that she's having right now, she would be brave enough and be not tired to fall in love with such a great and amazing person, whoever he might be is, that the Author of this universe had planned to betroth to her in the right time.
As hopeful as always that I am, I have high hopes that, one day, when that one magical and unforgettable day finally comes and she meets the Mad Hatter of her life, she would stay with him and not runaway.
:) ☀ ♥
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To the girl who's afraid to make decisions...
She maybe afraid, but it doesn't mean that she's a coward. Truthfully, if I were to go to battle and I'd get to pick only one other person who'll fight beside me, I'd pick her. Not because she's the strongest, but because she's the most loyal person I've ever known and for me, that's more than enough. Knowing that she's got my back and that she'll always be there with me to the end, gives me strength and courage to face my own demons. She's just scared of the uncertainties that lie further down the road that she was about to choose. She doesn't need someone to tell her where to go because she knows her own mind, thank you very much; but she's hesitant to choose because she always feel that she needs to weigh her options carefully. She's really not afraid to make decisions, she's just afraid to make the wrong ones. She's just scared to make the mistake that will turn her carefully built castle into shambles.
Don't let her natural sunny disposition fool you because underneath that seemingly jolly and content exterior, hides the anxious heart beating inside her chest. She's overly fond of her "What ifs?" ~ What if I would be happier if I choose that one instead? What if this is where I'm supposed to be? What if this is what I'm meant to be?
She wants to be happy. She wants to be spontaneous. She wants to be the best that she can be. But the problem is, she's afraid to choose. Because choosing for her not only means she gains something, it also means that she has to let go of the other. And I guess, that's what she's afraid of. Letting go of the "probable" better choice that she didn't take, troubled that the one she chose wouldn't work out.
I wonder where all these anxiety came from. Could it be because she's afraid to make the same mistakes that people close to her did? Or could it be she's just afraid to hurt people and make them turn away from her because of her decisions?
That's why she'd choose to bear the pain instead because she'd rather disappoint herself, than disappoint the people who's most important to her.
She doesn't need much. It's a given that she likes sparkles and magic, but those are not the only things she needs. In truth, I'm sure she would choose to live without it if she had to. I don't know if i'm right but I think that what she really needs, and I wish she finds, is a steady hand. One who'll not loosen it's grip on hers once she makes the mistake of tripping on her own feet, but rather grip it tighter instead to pull her up while telling her "Just take that leap of faith, little one. Everything's gonna be alright 'cause nobody's letting you go." and with this I wish, she'd finally find the peace her heart needs.
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