In honor of the All Saint's/Soul's Day, the moon sisters have decided to create a post appropriate for this time. We made lists of things that we want for our funeral. Take a peek...
If I Die Young...
I have this weird one-day-I-woke-up-thought that I would only last this earth for 25 years which means I only have 2 years left to live. (Okay, I can now hear my moon sister’s voice saying “Stop saying that!”) I think it was days after I was mourning over Cory Monteith’s death. Yes, that’s how I was deeply affected by it. Then, there’s the sudden news of my grandma passing away. So sudden, that I only stayed for a night and went back to reality without having to grasp that much of what happened. I want to let grief stay for a little longer but I couldn't. There's this whole other worlds of mine going on that I just couldn't find time to totally grieve. That's why I think, I even have my own DABDA cycle go on a weird process because I would get relapses from time to time. It’s like one day, I finished the whole DABDA cycle then after a week or so, I get gloomy again and realize that I’m back at the first step.
These strings of events made me think a lot – like how death is like a clock and is about to alarm in 10 minutes and you woke up just before it alarms and yet you don’t know what to do with the last 10 minutes, do you wake up and do something or just lie there until your 10 minutes is up; and that no matter how much you say to yourself that you’re prepared when it comes or that it will come, you can never be prepared for it; it’s like you wish that Mr. Joe Black would appear right in your doorstep telling you that your time is up, but you know that it never happens or it rarely does; or it would made you think of the line between the day you were born and the day you say goodbye on this earth, whether you lived a life that matters and as intensely as you wanted it to be?
See, that’s how odd I think of death coming near me.
So, one day, while I was listening to The Band Perry’s If I Die Young on repeat, I had this weird eureka moment and right away sent a text message to my moon sister saying that I want to write hand letters to all my loved ones so that when I die, I’d be able to leave something for them. But then, contradicting myself again, I feel like not wanting to leave anything to them because that would only make their moving-on-letting-go process take longer or more burdensome, right?
Anyways, since Halloween is here and morbid and weird thoughts on death, dying and funeral are excusable, here’s what I wanted my funeral to be like…
To my dearest loved ones and friends,
To my dearest loved ones and friends,
1. Please lay me down in a white wooden casket with my signature :) ☀ ♥ intricately designed or carved and painted in gold outside of it, like links cuffed up together surrounding the casket.
2. Dress me up in a little white dress paired with a dainty gold ballet flats or my favorite dress matched with my favorite sneakers.
2. Dress me up in a little white dress paired with a dainty gold ballet flats or my favorite dress matched with my favorite sneakers.
3. Adorn my funeral with roses, white lights and vanilla-scented white candles (mixed with the fragrance of roses)
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~ Pumped up kicks by Foster the People
~ Glad you came by The Warblers (Glee Cast Version)
~ Live while we're young by The Warblers (Glee Cast Version)
~ Enchanted by Taylor Swift
~ Sparks Fly by Taylor Swift
~ Fearless by Taylor Swift
~ Breathe by Taylor Swift
~ You by Switchfoot
~ I dare you to move by Switchfoot
~ Learning to breathe by Switchfoot
~ Mother we just can't get enough by The Radicals
~ Someday we'll know by Mandy Moore & Jonathan Foreman
~ Rock n Roll by Avril Lavigne
~ Secrets by One Republic
~ Good Life by One Republic
~ If I Lose Myself by One Republic
~ Every teardrop is a waterfall by Coldplay
~ Paradise by Coldplay
~ September by Daughtry
~ Home by Daughtry
~ Gift of a friend by Demi Lovato
~ The A Team by Ed Sheeran
~ Drunk by Ed Sheeran
~ Some nights by Fun
~ We are young by Fun ft. Janelle Monae
~ Seasons of Love by Glee Cast
~ If I die young by The Band Perry
~ For Good by Glee Cast
~ Raise your glass by The Warblers (Glee Cast Version)
~ The day you said good night by Hale
~ Kung wala ka by Hale
~ Fireflies by Owl City
~ Vanilla twilight by Owl City
~ Stereo Hearts by Gym Class Heroes ft Adam Levine
~ How do you sleep by Jessse McCartney
~ Say by John Mayer
~ Half of my heart by John Mayer ft Taylor Swift
~ Bigger than my body by John Mayer
~ No such thing by John Mayer
~ Fly away by JoJo
~ Fireworks by Katy Perry
~ We r who we r by Ke$ha
~ Drive Home from the OST of Liberal Arts movie
~ The Poison Tree by Moby ft Inyang Bassey
~ Beautiful goodbye by Maroon 5
~ Sad by Maroon 5
~ Breathe by Michelle Branch
~ So far away by Bamboo
~ Antukin by Rico Blanco
~ Salamat by Yeng Constantino
~ Cups from the OST of Pitch Perfect
~ In my life by Matt Scanell from the OST of Little Manhattan
~ Forever and always by The Parachute
~ Little secrets by Passion Pit
~ Jesus take the wheel by Carrie Underwood
~ Lough erin shore by The Corrs (unplugged)
~ How to save a life by The Fray
~ Look after you by The Fray
~ Never say never by The Fay
~ Drops of jupiter by Train
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6. Find the box where I kept the letters I wrote and give them to the persons named therein.
7. Turn me and the wooden box with letters in it into ashes after 7 days
8. After the funeral mass, keep me locked up in an urn which could be gold or white or silver or in a locket if you like
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I know some people find it quite a bit morbid to talk about death, especially in our age where everyone thinks we're still too young to think about it. But for me, I don't think so. Death is always there waiting on the sidewalk, sipping his coffee while passing the time, just waiting for your timer to go ding! And I was like, "Why don't I just take the seat across from him, grab his cup and steal a sip, while facing him eye to eye instead of just waiting to be caught off guard like a deer in headlights." So I began to collect my thoughts and transferred it on scraps of paper at hand...
It's funny how when I was in the middle of writing those letters that were "to be opened upon my death", I got a message from Rhio and she told me that she wants to do the exact same thing - this was around the time we learned of Cory Monteith's death. I started mine when she bugged me to learn the tabs for the song "If I Die Young" by the Band Perry. As I kept it on replay while practicing, the lyrics somehow got stuck on my head and made me wonder "This makes sense. Nobody knows when we're gonna die, but it's already a given that that's where we'll all end up. So why don't I just make my "will" as early as now, at least I got the time to prepare for it."
Don't think that by doing this, it means that I want to die young. I just don't want to leave loose-ends that would make people confused if ever I were to leave this world unexpectedly. I've met death once before, but it wasn't me whom he came for. One thing's for sure though, it wasn't a pleasant experience. Just writing about it now brings me back to day we met as if it just happened hours ago instead of three years. The only memory that somehow brings me comfort is that I was able to say my goodbyes. I know that some are not as lucky as I am, and I'm thankful that I got to say mine even though it hurts.
I guess from that moment on, that's when I learned to appreciate every moment that I wake up. Life may seem hard, everyday trials sometimes make you wish you did not wake up, but then you realize you're lucky you're still alive - at least you can still get to be hopeful for another day. Another thing that stuck with me after the day we met, was that I don't wanna die full of regrets. So I started to enjoy every little good thing that happens for me, no matter how simple or shallow it was. I'm not afraid to die tomorrow. If there's an after life and the people there would ask me,
"Do you regret that you died young?"
I'd say...
"NO, because I got to live the life that I wanted to live. I may not have been able to accomplish some of my dreams. I may not have seen all the places I wanted to see. I may not have read all the books I wanted to read. But when I think back about all those waking and dreaming moments that I've spent especially with my loved ones, IT WAS ALL WORTH IT. I won't cry for the things I might have had. I'll be thankful and happy instead for the things I had. So don't cry for me because I died young, because I tell you, I was happy and that's all that matters to me."
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Now here's a list of things that I would want to happen on my funeral:
- I don't want to be put into a casket. Please don't. I'd rather be cremated first within 24 hours then use the ashes for the wake instead. I don't want people staring at my coffin, looking at my death mask. I'd rather have them looking at photos of me alive and happy. That's the memory of me that I want them to keep.
If possible, I want an urn like this. Just a simple reminder that time never waits for us,
so we better make the most of what we got.
source - I want to be cremated wearing my Nirvana shirt and with my copy of Alice in Wonderland and my favorite stuff toy on my hands.
- There should be a HUGE cork board posted on the wall beside or behind my urn. On it, the people who'll visit could pin smiling pictures of me with them. That's what I want for everyone to see.
source - Then play these songs on my wake:
- Pure Imagination by Jamie Cullum
- "If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it. Anything you want to, do it."
- Moon on the Water by Beck
- "Full moon sways, gently in the night of one fine day. On my way, looking for a moment with my dear."
- First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes
- "This is the first day of my life. I'm glad I didn't die before I met you."
- Disappear by Parachute
- "Walk away. Leave it all behind. I dream of the escape but never try."
- Forever and Always by Parachute
- " I love you forever, forever and always. Please just remember even if I'm not there. I'll always love you, forever and always."
- La Vie En Rose by Louis Armstrong
- "When you press me to your heart, I'm in a world apart. A world where roses bloom..."
- February Stars by Foo Fighters
- "Even though pass the time alone somewhere so unknown. It heals the soul...February Stars. Floating in the dark. Temporary Scars. February Stars."
- Next Year by Foo Fighters
- "I'm in the sky tonight. There I can keep by your side. Watching the whole world wind around and round..."
- Another Round by Foo Fighters
- "Room for photographs. Box full of letters. Come on make it last, nothing else matters right now."
- Times Like These by Foo Fighters
- "I'm a new day rising. I'm a brand new sky to hang the stars upon tonight. I'm a little divided. Do I stay or runaway and leave it all behind."
- Friend of a Friend by Foo Fighters
- "He's never been in love, but he know just what love is. He said nevermind and no one speaks."
- Everlong by Foo Fighters
- "And I wonder. When I sing along with you. If everything could ever feel this real forever. If anything could ever be this good again. The only thing I'll ever ask of you, you've got to promise not to stop when I say when."
- Where Did You Sleep Last Night by Nirvana
- "My girl, my girl where will you go. I'm going where the cold wind blows. In the pines, in the pines where the sun don't ever shine. I would shiver the whole night through."
- Tea and Toast by Lucy Spraggan
- "When the skies are looking bad my dear and your heart's lost all it's hope. After dawn there will be sunshine and all the dust will go. The skies will clear my darling, now it's time for you to let go..."
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| "...and in the morning I'll wake you up...with some tea and toast." source |
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